Be Kind.

Happy New Year everyone!! Back from the hollows again...I'm so terrible at consistently posting and that's okay. I hope that anyone who reads this blog enjoys it, but more importantly I enjoy doing it and I shouldn't have to apologize if I haven't posted anything in a while and so I'm not going to, I wasn't in the right mindset to publicly display my thoughts. I think that this will be my theme for this year. I think that if 2016 has taught me anything it's that it's completely fine to not be good all the time and sometimes you have to say no to things for your own sake. I want my apologies to be saved for when they are due and not a flippant response to something I feel doesn't necessarily require an apology. Words stop meaning things if you use them so freely.

On another note, this is something that has popped into my head recently...I have noticed more this past year than any other that so many people are so careless about other peoples feelings. I really want to focus on being what I define a good person as. I want to be an example to those around me. I hadn't realized how easily people make brash judgments and are dismissive of others because of differences. I think that we should all take a second to remember that even if we don't like somebody or maybe they've treated you poorly in the past that they possibly have reasons and they have feelings as well and if we are open to differences we may learn something from others. I don't think we need to excuse bad behavior, but I think we can all be a little more open to getting past it and looking at what comes afterwards. Sure some situations warrant a loss of friendship or tense encounters with an acquaintance. This sounds a little preachy, but I just don't understand why so many people are so hateful and quick to assume. I am not exempt from this and I so greatly dislike that I have seen some of those qualities in myself. Being kinder and more welcoming to people who I don't know completely is something I want to work on this year and I hope others want to do so as well.

Okay onto more "goals for 2017," although I find resolutions to be completely overrated I do have things that I want to work on this year. I think that I went astray and lost myself a little in 2016. It was the year I felt least like myself and questioned my wants and needs and person more than ever. 2017 needs to be the year I rein myself back in. I think the nice part about being so disconnected from myself last year is that I can more objectively look at who I want to be. What qualities do I have that I really like? What qualities don't I like? What qualities do I want to acquire? It's going to be a self searching year for sure. I know now more than ever that I lack confidence and self esteem, which I always thought I had....WRONG Kayla! I need to give myself a little more credit, which sounds so self obsessed and I don't want to be self obsessed. I want to enjoy things more, I forgot to stop and smell the roses. I want to dance around my house more often. I want to cook yummy food. I want to speak my thoughts openly, kindly, but openly when I feel something needs to be said...this one will be tough for me. This year I want to love myself and I want to love others.

Happy 2017 everybody! I'll write something fun soon I hope, but I also hope to make this a place of reflection and deeper thought as well. Remember to be kind, to treat people as you want to be treated. And remember to hold your heart in your hands and listen to what it needs to thrive, what you need to be someone you can later look at with respect and love. Also, reflection is good...especially with a cup of coffee and an cute pen. So go, be kind, admire yourself, and reflect a little bit! Until we meet again...