Just Some Thoughts...

Hey guys! So I'm hoping to put out a post regarding my current skin care routine soon, just a heads up for what's coming. Today I just felt the need to write a little and let some thoughts roll off of my mind. This will probably just be a babbly, serious post so if you like the more lighthearted stuff feel free to skip over this one!

I have spent the past couple days feeling a little heavy. Do you ever just feel heavy? Not necessarily sad, or angry, or depressed, but like your feelings are too big to handle and you aren't sure where to put them all? I feel that way quite often. I think about this specifically when it comes to how I present myself to the universe. Something I have struggled with quite a bit, most prominently in the past few years is finding my passion. What do I want to do? Where is my heart? What lights a fire in my soul? I've always had so many hobbies, all of which I love, but none that I'm so incredibly passionate about that I want to be doing it all the time or turn it into a career. My friend told me the other day, "You have a lot of energy and nowhere to put it." I never really thought of myself as someone with high energy, but in all honesty he was so right. I don't think I thought of it that way because I've never been a physically high energy person, but something that is glaringly obvious to me is that I have a lot of energy in my feelings and emotions. This somehow creates a lot of cognitive dissonance because I feel like I have so much passion inside, but nothing that it's focused on. Where the heck am I supposed to put it??

I have come to the realization recently that I think I need to be self employed and in something creative. I don't quite know what that will be, but I am so impatient to figure it out. The problem with having so many creative interests is that you feel like you could do something big with any of them, but at the same time you don't feel enough excitement that lasts long enough for any one at a time to do anything. Sometimes I think that I could sell quilts, sometimes I could be a writer, sometimes a psychologist, sometimes a florist, sometimes a baker, sometimes, sometimes, sometimes...

Anyways, here's to finding yourself in the midst of the fog! What inspires you? What are your passions? What makes you smile?

Au revoir :)

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